Define me

2010-10-14T06:04:00.001-07:00

I just watched episode 13 of Playful Kiss, and I am so excited that I have decided to write a mini essay about the tv series up till the current episode aforementioned(disclaimer: may be interjected with delirium and overwrought). I've never felt so much compulsion to write a blog post about anything this much before.

BSJ finally confessed!! That emotionally-retarded hottie hot hottie! Finally! After causing Ha Ni so much pain!! I almost wanted to strangle him when he deliberately hurt her by saying he and Hae Ra are going to get married when Ha Ni was within earshot of the conversation between him and his mother. He is a character with a very strange personality. But it is probably because of his over-intelligence (he has an IQ of 200) that he vacillates between being overtly sweet to Ha Ni and being plain mean to her. The bane of being so smart happens when one faces a situation that he cannot grasp, control or make any sense of: one is rendered helpless and descends into a vortex of confusion. Therefore, his horrid treatment of the person he truly loves and occasional bipolarity can be absolved as his behaviour is interpreted as his reaction to fear and emotional disarray. They finally kissed!!! For the frickin third time! Three time's a charm! How momentous!! And from then on, it will be a jolly good relationship between BSJ and HaNi cuz they're gonna get married!!! YESS!!! They're finally going to consumate their feelings for each other! Unless they make the next season with problems in their marriage ala the Taiwan version....NO NO NO NO NO! They can not! They need to extend the series and let BSJ and HaNi make little BSJ babies!!! They're airing the next episode in Korea as I'm typing. Can't wait, can't wait!

2010-08-10T00:10:00.001-07:00

I shouldnt have to suffer because of their laziness.

Everyone is selfish. I want to leave because I have my dreams. She wants me to stay because she doesn't want to be left alone here.

I certainly don't want to be the self-less one. Has the thought ever crossed her mind that if she made that sacrifice, I would live with the guilt and that would make me appreciate her more. My mom is scheming, but not scheming enough. Nothing's gonna change my mind. I'm bent on leaving and the only thing that can stop me are my results. So that's that.

2010-07-25T09:31:00.000-07:00

It's 12.31 am now. I've spent the entire day working on the goddammed integration tutorial. Math is really something I can't get. Just gotta practise more and get used to the types of questions and memorise the way to solve them...zzzz. This is probably what everyone does, and I wonder how they think this is going to make us love the subject. But we really don't have to. Haha. Just need that A...... Anw, I've cleared most of my homework over the weekends- with my manic rushing, hardcore, amelia-esque homeworking doing(?) lol. Ionic tutorial/assgn, math integration1&a little bit of 2,bio tutorial, lit poetry comparison, eom draft 2. check.check.check.check.check.check. I really hope I can keep this up, and that my finally-revived blog wouldnt be an online homework logbook.........

2010-06-04T08:24:00.000-07:00

gonna revive my blog soon coz it is necessary to document every little snippet of my life.

2010-04-04T05:13:00.000-07:00

I really wish this isn't true. And I was childish enough to believe that I could actually get it. Sometimes it really hurts to take a reality check.

2009-12-25T06:34:00.000-08:00

My otaku lifestyle

My neopets bank acc finally reached 4 mil. There was an extremely long pause after that full stop. And another extremely long one after that. So anws I've finished reading and re-reading so many mangas. Watched and stopped watching so many shows. Finished reading Middlesex. LIKE FINALLY. Was a pretty good book but I got distracted by so many things. So the most momentous thing I've done was to complete 3/4 of the roller coaster tycoon scenarios. My life during the holidays can be pretty much summed up in 3 words: Dull and uninteresting. I'm just writing what ever that comes into my mind, which explains why I'm not making much sense. Dad and I seriously can't maintain a employer-employee relationship. Well, cos he's so hard to get along with. Always dissatisfied with everything the report I do for him wtf!!!! helooo?!?! like frigging be more appreciative of the child labour!!! So my holiday enemy is my dad. The more time I spend with him would only shorten both of our life spans. So for the sake of my health I quit working for him. Mom and I(Technically it's only mom) spent alot of money on The Body Shop products. Probably a few hundred by now. I need to keep stocking up on the body puree that she hates. Works as a moderate Mom-repellent. Oh speaking of my mother, i need to complain about my lack-of-privacy. On the 4th of January, the little that's left of my privacy will become no-privacy-at-all. So I will just have no privacy lah. Zilch. Spent both last year's and this year's christmas at home, IN SINGAPORE. which is pathetic as hell. Had a scrumptious christmas eve cum cousin's birthday dinner at my aunt's place ytd. Food was good but I didn't eat alot. Felt so tired and sleepy. Mitra wasn't there to entertain. My aunt gave me a 1.5kg tin of butter cookies..................awesome. SOSOSOSO tired now. Completed 2 rollercoaster tycoon scenarios today(YATTAAAAAAA!!!)while helping to throw things out. Don't feel like ever going back for training. Need. To. Eat. Something. Now. We're running super low on junk food here. AHHH!! There's absolutely nothing in the cupboard that's unhealthy!!!! _|_ I'm gonna list out all the tv shows I must finish watching so I don't become a halfway person.
1. DEXTER.
2. Iswak 2
3. hot shots(omg..dont wanna watch it anmore..)
4. One tree hill (5 more seasons to go)
5. cruel temptation (frickin 100++ episodes gonna give me an episode)
..... so many, i dont rmb.
Ahm.com and hma.com is frickin turning me into a horny woman. that's all i have to say. oh i restarted to play restaurant city after a few months of hiatus. got tired of it after a week or so. oh yeah. my dad's friends came(one of them was his ex. hahahahahah. aw mommm hehehe). almost had to go to body worlds with them which i so desperately didnt want to but dad was making things hard for me and both of us.put mom in a spot.and I haven't gone to body worlds yet. this just pissed me off. i need to go soon. I havent waited for months for nothing! I'm lying on the table as I type. I'm turning into a sloth. I need at least 12 hrs of sleep.

So that's how I sordidly spent most of my break.

2009-12-03T04:53:00.001-08:00

There's this cute hot guy.

But I obviously have no chance! Shiat.

2009-12-01T08:27:00.000-08:00

my boothang: the epitome of good looks.

2009-11-26T05:23:00.000-08:00

Havent blogged in a long time. But no one reads my blog anyways. So yes, I can write almost whatever I want here. I don't care if that 'see-er' sees my blog again. I will chronicle what I want and whatever I want. So this is my first post in like weeks, or maybe days.( AND OH YEAH IT'S BIG.)

Everybody's going overseas, and I don't know where my indecisive parents want to go. From US to Japan to Malaysia to Bali to Taiwan and now China. Well it just proves one thing- that the fickle-ness runs in the family. I really want to go to Taiwan! Aft watching iswak2 and spamming taiwanese variety shows. These Taiwanese are a funny bunch of ppl. Chih yun's a gd example haha. so anyways, I wanna go to taiwan. but my parents want to go to beijing or smth. AGAIN. wtfff. I DON'T WANNA END UP IN THE SAME TOUR GROUP AS THE 'SEE-ER'.

And during the hols I discovered that I can actually like instant noodles. No brand of instant noodles has ever made me want them so much like the nongshim kimchi thing. But still, I don't live on instant noodles like most ppl do. It's as unhealthy as macdonald's but at least there's coke hahaha.

Everybody's busy working, including MOI. I have the best job ever! It has made me a more generous person. heh heh. Not bad being the manager's daughter. Not bad at all. HAHAHHA. Waiting for val to be free next wk so we can go out~ and watch new moon or smth. Rpatz's' the most beautiful male specimen to grace human vision'. A very apt description indeed. Couldn't have said it better myself.

Um so today marks the end of the beach seminar/clinic thing. Which was T_T. There goes all my hardwork and weeks of un-tanning. Felt super uncomfortable playing beach, very not used to the sand. It started out being super boring, exhausting and HOT. Hot like I dunno, pancakes? Was super unwilling to do stuff. I think my glum face said it all. hahah 'But if you train on sand, you can FLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY indoors.' *rolls eyes*. But overall it was fun , having my teammates around. Minus the know-it-all, damned girl.

We saw the lamb sacrificial ceremony thing near the court outside the mosque. LOL could smell the sheep from far, quite distracting during trng. I poked a lamb and he got a shock hahahahahahah. So we saw lambs hanging from metal frames getting their heads cut off. I was surprised there was so little blood. Didnt get to see the head drop or how they killed the lambs though. I still think they just slit the throat along with the larynx , micole thinks they electrocuted them so there was no manic screaming. We stood outside for so long staring, some malay guy took pictures of the ready-to-die sheep and told us he's gonna post it on fb LOL. The sight wasnt that bad, only to the bio students haha.

To end off this momentous moment....a treat!for all you fellow twi-hards! w.o.w his smouldering hotness is really too much to handle. HHAHHAHA.

2009-11-05T20:50:00.000-08:00

I have decided. I'm gonna take lit. Like finally, after weeks of irresolution and contemplation. It's gonna be new but I think I'll enjoy it more than I would enjoy econs. And I still think econs is a cold and unfeeling topic lolol. Lit feels more welcoming. Well that's just how I see both of the subs now. Might change my mind afterward since I'm quite fickle.

Don't understand how people around me can not like this song. And I think she's pretty too.

2009-11-04T05:24:00.001-08:00

2009-11-02T23:43:00.000-08:00

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

-William Ernest Henley

2009-11-02T23:27:00.000-08:00

I just read something and it left me giggling like Michael Kors for like 5 seconds and then scream with laughter.

What a load of crap. She's wackadoodle. For sure.

2009-11-01T04:59:00.000-08:00

'The hottest male specimen to grace human vision.'

I'm Robsessed!!

2009-10-27T08:43:00.000-07:00

>:(

i can't stand this anymore. feeling terribly unsatisfied. *throws everything on the floor* hate it when a major douche keeps popping into my head. _|_ take this! _|_

and i'm no where done with that stupid scarf. and holidays arent here yet. really really really wanna sleep till 12 pm everyday. AND FINISH THAT STUPID KNITTING. and go spend my vacation somewhere but here. sucks that the matriarch is afraid of long flights. nothing longer than 8hrs. wtff. which means i'll be stuck in asia until i leave for college. yay. at least i have the movie date with val and clau to look forward to. reallllly need to catch up with things.

2009-10-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

3 words

my life sucks.

2009-10-14T05:19:00.000-07:00

I really need to do something about my room. It's super messy and I have loads of things stuff into storage boxes and my shelves are in a mess and my dustbin's overflowing. And I HATE the color of the wall of my room. What was I thinking when I chose that ugly shade of blue. Agyness Deyn, and all the men on my wall are slowly decomposing(?) like the paper's turning flaky. So are the newspaper cuttings I have stacked one on top of another and held up by lame magnets on the mini whiteboard.

NOOOOOO!!!! MY GEN 1 NANO!!!! PLEASE DON'T DIE!!! T_T *wait* I just saw a glimmer of hope! It has been neglected for such a long time that the battery's too weak to show a clear apple. heh heh heh. My antique baby.

2009-10-14T05:11:00.000-07:00

there's alot of self delusion going on here.

2009-10-08T04:15:00.000-07:00

fucking hell my mother cannot stop talking. fucking annoying. and my phone fucking sucks. dont buy lg touch screen phones if you have sweaty palms or have no patience. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. i want a keypad back :((((

2009-10-03T00:18:00.000-07:00

2009-10-02T04:17:00.001-07:00

oh man. i suddenly feel so insecure about my la essay. i probably argued too much about gender equality and how people take it so much to the extreme that it's just ridiculous. i hope my conclusion doesnt contradict my arguments. shit shit shit. i think my essay is bland and common. but that's probably coz i read it over and over again while checking for mistakes. until it became an unpleasant read. T_T math p2 was alright. haha. i gave up doing one of the questions. and spent the rest of the time calculating the least i can get for the paper. hahaha. i think we all got scammed about how hard it was. wasn't that bad. only 1 qn was weird. oh speaking of weird. the daughter of the person who owns khong guan stays in my estate. and she's STRANGE. like no joke. no exaggeration. she wore knee pads over her blue indian sari pant thing with some veil over her head once. today she wore a yellow sari like thing with the veil and without the knee pads. lol. out of this world.

2009-09-26T07:11:00.000-07:00

there's this voice in the back of my head that keeps telling me to study. and then there's me yelling: _|_STFU_|_ mom's not even telling me to study. like fo real. almost fell asleep during chi tuition this morning. whenever i think of exams i'll feel sleepy. still got lots more to study. or more like MEMORIZE. exams. pshhh. it's just a saving grace for the stupid. the kind who only rely on their memorizing skills. hints hints. hehe.

before i die, i must see a reform in the education system. and i desperately need to paint my nails this shade of blue that i don't have. fml. really hope that i can go to sfan for thanksgiving. turns out that we didnt win the 9 mil lottery on friday. HAHA. sad. dad still can't quit his job and we can't migrate to the US of A or tour the whole of europe. still far from leading our life the decadent way. but we'll stay positive!

feel like going on a joy ride now.

2009-09-25T08:14:00.000-07:00

lol when yx told me kings of leon had this song called sex on fire, i was like what on fire?! thought the song would be some horny man's experience. hahahhaahhaah. but it's a really catchy song.

addicted to the x factor audition vids now. ethan bororian and lloyd daniels are hot~ the jamie archer guy's quite cool too. hahhaha.

2009-09-21T02:15:00.001-07:00

2009-09-19T04:47:00.000-07:00

2009-09-19T04:21:00.000-07:00

this is positively the worst thing that can possibly happen now, it just made my life even sadder than before. there's van helsing at 10 later. yay hugh jackman. i'm probably the laziest person and best procrastinator. been sleeping alot lately and feel like sleeping most of the time when i;m awake. been dreaming about going on a vacation...like buy an air ticket now and fly off to san fran. feel like reading a few books now. but i am to lazy to. plus theres this nagging feeling/sensation? ___cant find a suitable word for it that makes studying seem important(and it actually is to most). not a very happy person now. envious of the year5s and rich kids. must make it a point/a resolution in life to change the education system in singapore. to abolish exams. i just think it's a pointless and highly inaccurate measure of intelligence. yes, gpa's one of them. not very happy with that thing.

everyone's leaving me now. like alot. ok just more than dewi and dickson and they're not coming back anytime soon.

2009-09-15T04:45:00.000-07:00

omggggomggg. it's only gonna come out in december hereT_T wtfffff. what an agonizing wait!! T_T. 2 hours of rpatz goodness! <3 omgomgogm, esp can't wait for the part where he strips!!! omgomgogmomgogmogmogogmogmogm .*squeals in delight with Dewi*~~

2009-09-05T06:59:00.000-07:00

omg alexander skarsgard!! voted sexiest man in sweden for 5 years or smth. he's 1.93m. and i even thought stephen moyer was short. hahaha.

tsk. my mom went to consult some fung shui master (fucking scammer) and he said some crap thing about studying and she actually bought it. wtf? worse, she can't stop yapping about the things he said. has it ever occurred to her that my room could actually be more conducive if she

would stop walking in and out saying things that make no sense scientifically? and i hate it when people don't knock before coming into my room. don't go like "but she's your mother" on me. asian values tell us that children who expect their parents to do something like that is an unfilial, disrespectful brat. ok, one thing about the asian values i cant stand is that everything has almost something to do with piety. like wtfff, no link?everything also "you unfilial child!""si gi na" LOLOL. tsk, anw about the knocking thing. i think it's even more disrespectful and impolite if parents dont knock and barge into their kid's room. talk about setting a good example. you're not the only ones who need privacy. and i enjoy privacy. so stop taking a detour into my room!!!!!

2009-09-03T05:18:00.000-07:00

Two words:

Devious cheat.

2009-08-30T07:50:00.000-07:00

Please ignore the fat man and his failed attempt(KUA KUA KUA) at trying to be cool. motherfucking spoiler. sorry for the expletive. don't feel like being a prude now.

2009-08-29T01:26:00.000-07:00

Tired. NEED TO SLEEP. Cant. Mom's at home. Won't let me. Sleeping=stupid&lazy. (???!!!) Must wait till 6. She would be out until 10. Hope so. My lack of sleep has taken away my ability to write in complete sentences. Not that I always write in complete sentences or like to. Because I wanna sleep(wanna be stupid&lazy).

Woke up at 8 plus and went to sch. Was the most well spent 1 hr of my life. Had an absolutely wonderful time there. We did super meaningful stuff. Yeah, I mean it. NOT. _|_

Urgh, she gives us so many things every week. Like we can finish doing them. Or more like, like I will finish doing them.

TSK. I dunno what I'm typing. Pissed off. I'll be even more pissed if I forget to buy a highlighter tmr or later at night (WHEN MOM'S NOT HOME. WHOOPIE). Feel like having sushi for dinner. No wait, feel like having sushi now. NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOWNOW.

I need salty stuff!! But not salty dry stuff. LIKE PRINGLES. Made me thirsty and annoyed.

Coach taught me a new spiking thing ytd. Fucking can't hit the motherfucking ball, and fucking can't stop myself from running into the other side. *screams and throws a fit like esther in the toilet cubicle*

2009-08-28T09:39:00.000-07:00

not hot meh!

ok, that wasn't even a question. rpatz<3>

2009-08-25T05:38:00.000-07:00

"Three things. Thanks, thanks...and thanks."

2009-08-22T05:43:00.000-07:00

Mom was talking to me about my addiction. Well not really talk, more like chiding. I.Can't.Stop. It's like how alcoholics can't kick the habit in a day. Can't resist the temptation T_T True Blood is too good. But. I don't like all the er scenes youxiang likes. Completely unnecessary. lol. wth. TSKKKK.

2009-08-21T07:21:00.000-07:00

Finished season 1 of fringe. At ep 5 of True Blood. Exams are going to come soon, I KNOW. But I just can't help it. I suddenly wanna continue where I left off for OTH and finish all 7 seasons and watch Hayley and Nathan finally get married*sobs*(best couple from OTH btw). And there's still smallville, which is......temmmmmmmmmmmmmpting. that's coz Tom Welling is hot. And that lead vampire from TB is sizzlin'. haha. Almost all the characters in TB have a southern accent. lol. And that makes that hot guy less hot. hill billy. HAHHAA. and the series is vulgar too! it has stuff that youxiang would appreciate(i'm not saying anything specific, go infer). heh heh.

mom wanted to get me the puma L.I.F.Ts. But I was like nahhhhh, but deep down, I want it. There's this chinese idiom to describe that kind of situation where you want something but u say u dont want it. urgh.

I wanna live a life of decadence. I would if I could! Who wouldn't? OH WELL. We can't choose which family we want to be born to(not that I don't like my family) but we certainly can choose whether we'll be able to hm, how should I put it, free ourselves from the menace, the wrought iron chains commonly known(or maybe not)as poverty. Alright, enough, Bill Compton needs my attention. *chuckles*

*ps: his real name is william compton. lol. like seriously, WILLIAM? I think edward would make a hotter vampire name. yes rpatz, so hot, i know!

2009-08-20T07:40:00.000-07:00

"My deft floral arrangements have earned me fame in international botany circles. Children trust me. I can hurl tennis rackets at small moving objects with deadly accuracy. I once read Paradise Lost, Moby Dick, and David Copperfield in one day and still had time to refurbish an entire dining room that evening. I know the exact location of every food item in the supermarket. I have performed several covert operations with the CIA."

That was actually part of a college entrance essay. How smart. No sarcasm intended. haha.

2009-08-13T03:24:00.000-07:00

www.perezhilton.com!

best ever quintet by the disney stars. the jobros, mileycyrus, demi lovato and selena gomez. there are actually 6 people but kevin doesnt count coz he doesn't have a solo/solo duet. hah. loser. play guitar only. hehehe. i think the song's nice. even perez thinks so! go watch! oh the song is called send it on.

2009-08-12T05:59:00.001-07:00

fringe rules! wasted 40 mins in the g.o today. coz of her. she kept shouting at me. extremely annoying. she's so useless, kept saying "oh but bryce said bryce said." *rolls eyes* is that all you can say? lame haha. she and all her lame eastern viewpoints. i think i told her that. haha that she was so chinese. who ask her to say wan yi. heloooo. me not chinese! go look up my bio before you say stuff that i wouldn't agree with. so er she was being unreasonable, as usual, and devious. well, two can play at that game. if i hadn't cried she would have made me stay there for the entire day or smth. i'm extremely convinced that the school works, or more like takes disciplinary action (which to us is without fairness, sensibility and completely outrageous and not to mention lame) most unreasonably. and they succeed. why? because the parents are always on their side. that's it, the school or more like her, just counts on the parents to agree with her and that gives her the green light to pass whatever punishment she wants, unreasonable or not. you think she cares?my point is, it's the parents' consent that matters and she has close to no authority if a parent were to disagree. i saw her get all pissed. haha. she almost said what my mom said was rubbish. dayum what a waste. she could have gone into the newspaper for that. i just think everybody's parents should stand up, not for their child but for themselves. to let yourself be controlled like a marionette? i think not. what they do is just play with your emotions and mess up your mind, or more simply just piss you off so that you'll not be in the right state of mind to see the situation from your child's pov. which is obviously very unfair. it's like they're urging you to just be unfair, *speaks like argus filch*"go on, you know you're angry, ohhhh you're child is wrongggg so wrongggg "yeah so, in a nutshell, this is the school's modus operandi.

2009-08-11T07:57:00.000-07:00

math test tmr. i think i suck at math, most of the time. yeah that's right. and most of the time includes major exams. this year's paper1 is like 2.5 hrs? no shit. gonna be the longest 2.5 hrs of my life. got some dumb zuowen 'test' tmr. lame. haha! i got 45/70 for the previous one. wootsies. \m/

watched ep 2 and 3 of fringe just now. oh it's so good. but the plot's kinda weird coz dr bishop always has some past research that explains the stuff that's going on. he's like indirectly involved in most of the cases. but apart from that er 'unrealisticness'. \m/FRINGERULES\m/*says it really fast*

gonna get see's candies soon. be jealous all of you see's-candies-less people. muahahhaha.

2009-08-10T05:53:00.001-07:00

2009-08-10T05:24:00.001-07:00

doing the math ws due tmr. wah math is fucked up. fucking don't get no shit. HAHA. urgh. math is making me vulgar. watched push just now coz of camilla belle. that movie was a whole load of crap. x-men wannabes. bleh. there's fringe later! can't wait! when are they going to show true blood?!?!? ohoh mom just got ham. &it's to die for! oh ya dad drove us up to the lane of residences next to the international school behind fuckity fucked up rv. really cool place! all angmohs!<3 and every house has at least 2 dogs. cool shit. my parents should just be more practical move there. the rent there is equivalent to renting out our house i think. bigger place, nicer neighbours, with that hort part right outside our door step and friends for happy(the dog). not that i care about him. but haha. it's one more reason for us to move there. but i think it's only reserved for expats? lol dunno. sad. sad life. gym tmr. f!!!! have to bulk up again. and he wants us to run after bulking up so that we wouldn't look so bulked up. id rather go for co. and shit. my teacher told me that i had to perform with a group of ppl somewhere, he wasnt kidding. shit. i can foresee. i'll be so nervous and my hands will sweat so much that you'll only hear "splash splash splash" when i play. i'll be the joke of the century. there goes my efforts to lead a peaceful life T_T. sad.

2009-08-10T03:22:00.000-07:00

I HATE ELECTRICO. Mother fuckers copied their song from somewhere. It just doesnt sound like their own. I bet they got bits and pieces from other more accomplished bands. I still think they copied from Switchfoot although they don't sound the same. They merely made the song sound slower and changed the lyrics. Cheap trick! Don't ask me how I know. I just know. That's that. They're plagiarizers! Stupid wannabes! _|_ >< _|_

*LOL. If they sue me for defaming them here coz someone sold me out to them i.e SENDING THEM A LETTER, I'll be like LOLWTHLMAOROFL!!!!!! when did that happen to me before?? HMMM.

2009-08-09T21:54:00.001-07:00

LOL

2009-08-08T05:58:00.001-07:00

still like this bg better.

NOW I CAN BLOG LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS \M/

2009-08-08T05:23:00.001-07:00

2 tvs, with only one that has cable isn't enough.

2009-08-06T07:44:00.000-07:00

argh. all i wanted was to have a peaceful life for another 2 more years here. and i worked so hard to keep my composure for the past few months. not easy ok. and it's not fun getting pissed easily. and thanks to them being so ___ *whatever i've said in the previous post*, i've lost it. and now i have to start all over in anger management. fucking cheebyes. CUNTS.*inserts more expletives if i knew more* _|_ urgh, i'm further away from reaching nirvana. NO THANKS TO THEM. _|_|_|_|_|_|_|_|_|_|_|_

2009-08-06T05:11:00.001-07:00

The only thing I regret was to let them step all over us. She something like if our blogs are personal, why was she able to read it. of course she can read lah. we didnt lock our blogs what( i tried and failed to way before this shit happened). just because she's the dm doesnt mean that she can say whatever she likes and force us to subscribe to her opinions which are obviously biased. I don't see why she had to include her husband into the picture, to ask him to judge whether videos downloaded from the internet could have been nc16. most would think that our ft would help clear our name. unfortunately ours didnt. she was trying to find loopholes in our arguments all the while, fucking annoys me to no ends. thus i conclude that all teachers are evil. haha. give me a demerit point for this lor. you have no proof that i wrote this because my name isnt here! HAHA. they were trying to be like magnanimous or something saying that they won't continue to pursue the matter. it wasnt their call to pursue it in the first place. PLEASE. and then they're pushing the blame to our parents?! well not they, it's that woman. she said it as if our parents are the ones who should be held responsible for our behaviour and that she expects to see their commitment letter shit in her pigeon hole. heloo. you're not the boss of my parents, neither are you the boss of me. it's absolutely ludicrous! the nerve of them to tell our parents to write a what my parents and i felt was an 'apology' for their 'bad parenting'. of course, knowing my parents, they wouldn't agree to such an unreasonable request or should i say demand. they completely show no respect to our parents! hah. should have told her what my dad thinks this situation thing is all about. "SABOTAGE!" HAH. would love to see the look on her face. would be priceless! i only told her what mom said. hah. she looked like she was going to burst or something. well that would be good. the world would be a much better place.

i really cannot accept the education system here. or the M.O of those people. they think that they're teaching us the right things? oh yeah? so what's with them hiring one of us as a spy so that they can get information? are they cultivating the correct behaviour? they say that people who gamble off their money and wives all start out by gambling a small amount of money. so according to their analogy, that little spy would ultimately grow up to be a traitor to their own country.yeah that's true.

the mindset that the education system instils in us is wrong. they teach us to be selfish, to be unwilling to stand up for others even if we know we could probably help, they teach us to threaten, to coerce, to incite hatred amongst people in order to achieve our desires. this we learn from them. well, every man for himself right, if you don't stand up for yourself no one will. so that explains my point of how people can turn ugly just for their own gain.

i don't see how the she couldnt have been more vindictive. this obviously shows how she's such a prude and not well versed in biology. well duh coz she doesnt teach it. lol. i mean arguing from a more scientific perspective, it's human instinct to be curious for both sexes and certain hormones are released during puberty for boys to ....do what ever they do during puberty. this they must understand. they can't expect everyone to be a mould of themselves. and i certainly don't believe that they are saints like they carry themselves as/like they think they are. lame. moreover, different people have different views towards things. like the time when this boy squeezed himself into the lift before all of us could exit. i thought that was rude, but to him it probably wasn't rude at all. the same as watching ___. we think that it's alright but you think that watching it without the __ scenes is a crime and we were wrong. who are you to judge? you're not god. god can judge, i would let him judge. although i'm buddhist but he's legit. he's higher power that we cannot reject. but she's not. she's just, HER. if she thinks it's morally wrong for us to watch it then she's just being very narrow minded about things. it's not even a crime for crying out loud! trying to threaten us/scare us, that the police would apprehend us if they see us watching it. please like they would. the most they would do it to just get us to stop. law enforcers are clearly more rational. point is, she has no right to say whether something is wrong according t her own opinions. that's just downright unfair and not to mention unreasonable. the entire episode was completely unnecessary and ridiculous.

and i cried because i thought they were being difficult and unreasonable to include more people into the picture and that they were being unfair and had no right to butt in to our personal lives,. saying that us coming together as a homogenous group spoils the reputation or whatever , check the logic. i mean i know what we did but they cannot just call us in just because of their baseless assumptions. and and and. them reading our blogs, prying into our lives is considered stalking. cyber stalking to be exact. and it's against the law here. thank your lucky stars i'm not that rich to start a lawsuit. i would if i could, definitely. i just don't want to constantly be at unease and feel uncomfortable going on with life because at the back of my mind i know that they could be watching our every move. this is just retarded, and like i said ludicrous. if they are so busy like they claim to be then stop all this nonsense. stop prying. it's a breech of personal privacy and it's considered to be harrassment. they can be sued for that. they're relying on the fact that every parent would come to terms with what they are accusing their child for. and that's obviously a gamble because i would not take this lying down if my child is under constant scrutiny.

and i think that some of them are relishing in the possible destruction of our gleaming future. and enjoying all the drama that goes with it. like a certain someone who was being super sarcastic saying things like 'did you sleep well? you look like you have lots of things on your mind.' kind of shit. they're being sadistic and i'm not afraid to tell them that. the least they/that person could have done was to help us. i mean, if you were there, you could have seen how perverse that person is viewing the situation. really as though he's enjoying all of it. sick bastard.

and they cannot just tear us apart, destroy our relationships and with the flip of the dime say that they won't pursue the matter anymore. <--i tweaked a quote to fit the situation.

and i'm glad that north korea finally released the 2 american journalists.